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Stress and Solutions Therefore
Jan. 22nd, 2021 01:57 pmI'm stupidly stressed right now--and not for any good reason. Its annoying. I need a plan. This is mostly just noodling, with a side of ranting.
I need to get into better physical shape--and yes, that absolutely includes managing what I eat. Ice cream, chips, and cheese should not be major components of anyone's diet. Fruits and vegetables should be major components for almost everyone. Intuitive eating may work for some people, but when your body thinks its starving while you gain 5 pounds a month, its probably not for you. It's really hard to stick to a healthy meal plan--even though sticking to that meal plan for a week means I have tons more energy, feel generally better, and have better overall mental health. Between the PCOS and the almost certainly related binge eating, all of my body's mechanisms that would signal me to eat in ways that aren't damaging myself seem to be pretty broken. I feel better mentally and physically when I've been eating sensibly, but my body will not ever signal me towards eating that way in the short term.
I have a couple of people on my friendslist who are super anti any form of dieting or food restriction. They call all of it disordered eating. I'm not sure they realize that for some of us you have "meal plan strictly but sensibly" or "eat yourself to death". They seem to thing that if I was eating what I should be eating because that's what my body "wants" it would be fine, but because I have to meal plan to do it, its an eating disorder. No, Judgy McJudgerson, it's the result of a significant hormone issue (and possibly a previous binge eating issue--although binge eating doesn't go away overnight when you change your hormones). Anyway, It's super frustrating to have this one size fits all bullshit talked at you all the time (and January is the season for it).
I need to get more exercise. The current baseline is about as close to zero as you can get while still being a functioning adult. Its just that going outside is horribly stressful and exercising in a mask sucks (but getting covid would suck more). I'm at the point where I can feel a half hour walk; this is bad. And for optimal physical and mental health I should really be getting a couple of hours of exercise. (Yes, its a lot. However, historically, its what my body prefers. If I was going to get a metabolism that prefers this much exercise, why couldn't I have gotten one that rewarded me for it in the moment?) I need to figure out how to get regular cardio exercise--without stressing myself out over all of my neighbors who get too close and don't wear masks. Probably also need to figure out weight bearing exercise, but I have no idea at all what I'm doing there; I'll worry about that later.
Weirdly, I need both more people time and more alone time. Talking to friends is incredibly renewing; its kind of amazing. Even zoom or phone is good, but in person is better. But covid. Ugh. I also need real alone time. I haven't been alone for more than 25 minutes at a time in almost a year. Because of the three of us, I'm the one who leaves the house most.
I need to get into better physical shape--and yes, that absolutely includes managing what I eat. Ice cream, chips, and cheese should not be major components of anyone's diet. Fruits and vegetables should be major components for almost everyone. Intuitive eating may work for some people, but when your body thinks its starving while you gain 5 pounds a month, its probably not for you. It's really hard to stick to a healthy meal plan--even though sticking to that meal plan for a week means I have tons more energy, feel generally better, and have better overall mental health. Between the PCOS and the almost certainly related binge eating, all of my body's mechanisms that would signal me to eat in ways that aren't damaging myself seem to be pretty broken. I feel better mentally and physically when I've been eating sensibly, but my body will not ever signal me towards eating that way in the short term.
I have a couple of people on my friendslist who are super anti any form of dieting or food restriction. They call all of it disordered eating. I'm not sure they realize that for some of us you have "meal plan strictly but sensibly" or "eat yourself to death". They seem to thing that if I was eating what I should be eating because that's what my body "wants" it would be fine, but because I have to meal plan to do it, its an eating disorder. No, Judgy McJudgerson, it's the result of a significant hormone issue (and possibly a previous binge eating issue--although binge eating doesn't go away overnight when you change your hormones). Anyway, It's super frustrating to have this one size fits all bullshit talked at you all the time (and January is the season for it).
I need to get more exercise. The current baseline is about as close to zero as you can get while still being a functioning adult. Its just that going outside is horribly stressful and exercising in a mask sucks (but getting covid would suck more). I'm at the point where I can feel a half hour walk; this is bad. And for optimal physical and mental health I should really be getting a couple of hours of exercise. (Yes, its a lot. However, historically, its what my body prefers. If I was going to get a metabolism that prefers this much exercise, why couldn't I have gotten one that rewarded me for it in the moment?) I need to figure out how to get regular cardio exercise--without stressing myself out over all of my neighbors who get too close and don't wear masks. Probably also need to figure out weight bearing exercise, but I have no idea at all what I'm doing there; I'll worry about that later.
Weirdly, I need both more people time and more alone time. Talking to friends is incredibly renewing; its kind of amazing. Even zoom or phone is good, but in person is better. But covid. Ugh. I also need real alone time. I haven't been alone for more than 25 minutes at a time in almost a year. Because of the three of us, I'm the one who leaves the house most.
